Kai-Zen, a Japanese term meaning “Good Change”, has come to mean “Continuous Improvement”. This is my lifelong journey. 

About the Author:

Shantey Moabelo

If you had to ask my mother how I was as a little kid, she would probably tell you that I was always sad, moody, or angry. She would probably say I spent most days locking myself up and spending time alone, isolating myself from everything that made me sad. I never thought they understood me. Why I was angry, sad and lonely; I would scream and shout at the angry parent who slapped me whenever she saw fit. I was scared of my mother, myself and the thoughts that invaded my mind. I never excelled in school. I often struggled to grasp things. I couldn’t pay attention or focus on one thing. I had many interests that would last as long as a day. It’s not a surprise that I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder and ADHD. I wish they had diagnosed me earlier in life. Perhaps I would have been happier. Living with a mental health disorder is difficult and lonely. Many people don’t get it. They stigmatise, and many people pull away. It’s like a virus that spreads to the people you love and replicates while it makes copies of itself that lay in my closet of skeletons. I started writing in my first year of varsity. I wanted to let go of the weight on my shoulders. My writing got better over time. I’ve always been imaginative and would piece each and every word in the form of storytelling. Some of my writings are fictitious stories of love and lust, other pieces tell a story of the traumas of childhood and adulthood, and some others are about an everyday journey of figuring it out. Kai-Zen, as you may know, means “Continuous Improvement”. A Lifelong Journey.